Reviewing and Resoluting

And yes, according to Ali Martel, resoluting is to in fact a word. A word that she made up. And now, I am borrowing it.

I started typing this post with 3.5 hours left in 2010, but then the neighbor’s daughter (she’s 10) came over and said “We’re partying!! Come over!!”.  The girls and I (and a bottle of wine. Like the first bottle of wine I have ever bought for myself because I don’t know wine.  I know tequila.) went across the sidewalk and brought in the New Year with new friends.  She is going to make being single so much easier.  ThankyouElmo.

So, back to the reviewing and resoluting.

2010 was a year sort of like any other year.  It had 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days.  Some days were slow, boring, yawn worthy.  Others full of excitement and laughter and zeal (does anyone use that word anymore? Did anyone ever? And why am I?)

In April, Brian mentioned THE RING.  I believed him then.  We all know how that turned out.

In July I put another year between me and 40.

Over the course of the year I vented out of the day-in-the-life-of-me style of writing and actually wrote a few posts in which I voiced an opinion about things going on in the world around me.  I like to say I am an idiot when it comes to politics and I’m not afraid to show it.

In October, I revealed why my summer mostly sucked.

Also in October?  I realized a dream of mine.  I, along with a group of amazing other women bloggers, became contributors at Buy-Her.com. My first review was well received and getting to write with my friend Britt, is well, a dream come true for me.

In November I moved out of the hell hole the girls and I had been living in, into a great new duplex that I am totally in love with and not embarrassed by at all.

From Thanksgiving on, my life seemed to be in full on free fall mode.  While one area of my life was thriving and improving and giving me hope, other areas of my life were falling apart and I was helpless to stop them.

So, today, I woke up in my own bed, (which is rare for me on weekends because we have always spent our weekends at Brian’s house. And now? I get to spend them at my house) in my house.  The start of a new year.  Not a do over, because you can’t undo what has already been done.  But a chance to regroup, and refocus.

And that refocusing and regrouping?  That’s where the resoluting comes in.

In 2011, I want to have more of a presence on line.  I am a self proclaimed attention whore, and well, I am going to write more.  I am going to pick up my camera more, I am going to explore me and the world around me more.

Today I have an overwhelming nesting instinct, to clean up this house, to finally get everything put away, all the pictures hung, and make it a real home, and not just a place we stay during the week.  Because obviously.

I am going to explore me, I am going to figure out where I stand on issues, what I think, voice my own opinions instead of parroting someone else’s, or keeping my mouth shut because I disagree with someone.

I am going to stretch my boundaries, I am going to step outside my comfort zone.  I am going to introduce myself to myself and get to know me a little better.

And I’m going to take all of you along for the ride.