I am almost afraid to write this. Afraid that writing this will jinx my luck. Or worse, will incite hatred and jealousy in you all and I’ll lose all my readers.
And yet, I’m going to write it.
Because it’s Christmas.
And miracles, or unexplained magic, good luck, or wishes come true, whatever you want to call it, is not unheard of this time of year.
To say that 2010 has not been a kind and easy year for me is sort of an understatement. I will admit that the problems I have gone through this entire year are mostly of my own making. To say that my life seems to have come together is in fact true, but I’m afraid that dwelling on it will jinx it and my luck will turn.
I have spent more than a few weekends in jail this year. But that issue is resolved. I was on probation at the beginning of the year, and now? No more. I started 2010 living in a hell hole I was embarrassed by, and now? I live in a really cute duplex I am damn proud of. I have a new writing opportunity at Buy-Her.com where I get to write with a group of fabulous women.
At the beginning of December, Christmas was just over 3 weeks away. The girls wanted laptops for Christmas last year and at the last minute, Brian and I just couldn’t come up with the money to get them for the girls. It was my hope to fulfill that wish for them this year. If nobody else got a single present from me this year, my girls would get laptops.
Now I just had to find the money.
And somehow? The money was there. Just when I needed it.
And the price of the laptops?
Lower than I planned on.
And then, Brian’s birthday is the 20th. In the 4 years we’ve been together I have never been able to get him both a birthday gift and a Christmas gift.
Until this year.
And not only did I manage to get him exactly what I wanted to get him. I managed to get him exactly what I wanted to get him, for less money than I planned to spend.
I don’t know how to explain it, but the money for the gifts was always there, just when I needed it. I don’t know what to call it (maybe poor judging on my part?) but when I went to buy the gifts? They were less than I expected.
Christmas has come together in a way I would have never expected, much like my life this year.
For the first time since I divorced their dad I am able to give the girls a real Christmas, instead of just buying them what I can afford, I was able to get them what they wanted. In a big way.
So this year, when the presents are handed out, it won’t matter so much to me what I am handed to open. The joy I will get from opening presents will be watching those I love open the gifts I picked out for them, knowing I was able to do all of that all by myself without cutting myself short.
And that?
Is the miracle of my Christmas.
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