Finding forgiveness.

I am working on forgiving.

I’ll be honest, it’s difficult.

No, it’s down right hard.

But the anger I’m holding on to is hurting me.  It’s getting in the way.  It’s holding me back.

It is a physical heaviness in my chest, and my gut, when I think about the situation.

I don’t want to be this angry.  I don’t want to be this pissed off.  I don’t want to fee this weighed down over something I can’t control.

It’s over. It’s done.  It can’t be undone.  And yet, it continues to echo in my head, in my heart, in my life.  I still get SO angry I cry.

And that? Is stupid.

And unhealthy.

It’s time to forgive them.  Not for them, they won’t care.  They will continue to be mad at me, but I need to forgive them so that I can let it go, so I can move on.